2015 is a year of change for my family. My husband will be turning 40, we will have another driver, as our oldest will be turning 16 and getting his license, our middle boy will be entering the teen years, and all 5 of us are going on a big trip out of the country together for the first time. This is a big year for us. Even with all the change, I am really looking forward to what God is going to do. Last year was a huge learning year for me personally. God always has something to teach me. It was my first year with The Freedom Movement and through that involvement, God revealed a lot to me about myself, my sin, and my relationship with Him. I learned a lot of hard lessons, but through those lessons I felt a freedom in my relationship with Him that I had never experienced before. I realized that I am insecure and a people pleaser. I cared too much about what people think about me and focused too much on trying to make everyone happy. This was physically and emotionally exhausting. My people pleasing mindset also affected my relationship with God. I spent so much time trying to do the right thing and to please Him that when I messed up, I would beat myself up and not be able to feel or accept His grace and forgiveness. My insecurity led to putting negative labels on myself and never feeling good enough. When I looked in the mirror I didn’t see the person that God created me to be. 2014 was a tough year, but it was also one of the best. Going through all these personal struggles brought me to a place of freedom and a simple, loving and grace-filled relationship with my Lord.
Our word for 2015 is the word BRAVE. This word perfectly describes how I want this new year to look. I want to be brave enough to be the person that God created me to be, without insecurity or worrying about what people think of me. I want to look in the mirror and see the woman that God sees. I want to be brave enough to speak truth and to love without fear. Last year I learned so much about God’s grace and forgiveness for me, and I want to be brave enough to give that to others. My heart is ready and open for all he has for me and my family this year. Let’s all be BRAVE together!